It was Wednesday afternoon that I realized I had made a big mistake. HUGE! A professional mistake. I had put the wrong date on my calendar to lead a retreat and I was not available for the right date. Luckily I had just pulled into the driveway when I realized what I had done. I think my heart stopped and my stomach flipped. The worst was yet to come. I had to make a phone call and admit my mistake. Ugh!
As I dialed the number, I braced myself for what I was about to hear. Silence? Curse words? Click? I had no idea. There was silence. And then these words, “Welcome to the human race.” Then I was silent. I had been expecting anger and received a joke. I had been ready for harsh words and I received grace. I was ready to cry and found myself laughing. Welcome to the human race!! I am imperfect and make mistakes AND its okay.
Why do I forget that I am not God and I am human? Why do I feel that I am able to achieve perfection in this life? Where does that kind of life leave room for God? What does the other person do that makes him available to offer grace and forgiveness?
On Wednesday I was humbly reminded that only Christ was perfect. Only God is in control. If I submit to the plans God has for my days and my life, I am free to experience peace. One of my favorite scriptures is, “Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light,” Matthew 11:28-30. It always brings me back to reality and reveals how hard I have been trying to do things on my own.
The rest of the day I felt as though I was truly floating through air. While I visited with some friends over dinner I found myself really listening. When reading a book to my daughter at bedtime, I found that I still had energy to be playful. I discovered that when I stop trying to control everything, pretending to be perfect, there is more time to be just me. Truly present and peaceful.
I am thankful to be part of the human race and I’m thankful you are there with me. Let’s remind others to claim their true identity this week and welcome them back into the human race. I promise they will relax and be thankful they know you!